17
Jan
I’m stupid depressed today. I had all these weird dreams last night and woke up depressed about basically every aspect of my life. I kind of have been for a while, but just decided not to deal with it. I feel like I’ve learned everything that I can from working at this shop, and at this point its like all I can do is be stressed until shit decides to get better. I don’t even fucking like cars anymore.
Me and AJ seem to have come to the point in our relationship where its nothing but comfort. We don’t grow as a couple anymore, he talks to me like I’m one of his guy friends, anytime I ask him to help me with something I get a bunch of bull shit. I know he works almost harder than anyone else at the shop, But I’m the only one taking care of shit at the house. He hasn’t had to pay one bill or ever pay rent I take care of fucking everything and have for like the past 11 months. I took on that role on purpose, yes because hes too forgetful to really be given so many deadlines to remember. But he doesn’t appreciate it, at least enough to take the trash out for me when I’m cleaning the whole apartment by myself. Shits just dull, and I always promised myself I wouldn’t settle for shit like that so…shits gonna change ya’ll.
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